25 Feb 2011, 6:49pm
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what’s up?

ok. ok. the longer i wait to write the more stuff i’m gonna have to write about—or the more gaps in the overarching narrative, which i suppose is not such a crime. things have happened. i have taken in some culture, including a few plays (the agony and the ecstasy of steve jobs; the grapes of wrath) and some concerts (jazz at yoshi’s in oakland; grace potter and the nocturnals at the fillmore, which rocked; “vaudevillian indie folk” at the starry plough). a few weeks ago A and i went to a performance at (of?) the audium in sf, which is a “theatre of sound” in which the audience sits in concentric circles in complete darkness while the composer/creator of the whole thing plays his composition through dozens(?) of speakers arranged all around. it was pretty cool. i have sampled the wares at three different gourmet ice cream shops… salted caramel ice cream anyone? how about macadamia vanilla sorbet? blood orange? honey lavender? uh, yum.

judith and i climbed hills to get to the seward street slides, which are huge, long, steep concrete slides tucked into a lush residential neighborhood in sf. it’s good fun, unless you’re sliding at the same time as a totally badass kid and his dad (who’s got a cast on his arm, coincidentally) who are forgoing cardboard boxes in favor of wax paper and the slides are as a result quite lubricated, resulting in you and your cardboard toboggan getting serious air and flying off the end of the slide… in which case it is AWESOME. there were some bruises and a lot of laughter. RECOMMENDED.

A and i went to the exploratorium and poked things and spun things and made ridiculous headwear out of cardboard. also RECOMMENDED.

i went out to dinner in the mission with my aunt theresa and my cousin dash. then we walked down valencia and passed a little table on the sidewalk where a guy was selling little bowls of soup and little baggies of homemade chocolate truffles. “what’s this?” asked dash. sayeth a hipster while paying for his soup: “it’s a pop-up, duh.” the truffles were seriously tasty.

A and i practiced singing and playing the be good tanyas’ “the littlest birds” together and then we made a silly video:

my hair is almost long enough to fall into my eyes. and curly.

on tuesday i am moving to marin county—following the tracks i laid out way back in october. i am thankful to me-in-october for setting that in motion, because… well. i am having a hard time articulating the way i feel about my life right now. it is kind of unstructured. to say the least. it is starting to affect my self-esteem. but on tuesday i am starting something new, and i am excited about it, and i will leave it at that.

i think i am coming to terms with life being sort of like the ocean, with waves across the top that flow and change, bringing with them passions, interests, drama, people, etc, never “all figured out” and static… and deeper, calmer waters below. i will never have it all figured out, but i have some anchors i can hold on to.

here’s some photos from the past few weeks.


(photo by judith)

(photo by a.)

7 Feb 2011, 1:40pm
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look what i made!


(photos from the roadtrip here.)

3 Feb 2011, 10:07pm
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land’s end

i usually post my photos totally unedited, mostly because opening photoshop (much less actually doing much with it) makes my computer chug along as slowly and unsteadily as a snail on a bender. (it’s five years old, which is, what, about a bazillion in computer years?) but i would like to learn more about post-processing, so today i managed this—

before:

after:

hip, no? i may have overdone it with the vignetting, a little bit (and there may be better techniques than the one i used). but i think A looks pretty fly there. [edit days and days later: the more i look at these edited photos, the more i dislike them. i like the unedited photos better after all. i don't know if that means i ought to learn more about post-processing or if i ought to just trust that my camera knows what it's doing in the first place (and that i know what i'm doing when i press the shutter).] however, since i don’t want to spend all night editing the rest of the photos i took at sutro baths and land’s end yesterday, here’s some more of my favorites, totally unedited:


(actually in berkeley, on the way to the bart station)

2 Feb 2011, 1:00am
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flowering

somewhere in berkeley, on an ordinary residential street, there is a little archway covered in vines. if you walk through it you’ll find a pathway to a gate. if you know a code, you can pass through the gate and follow another dimly-lit path to a little deck with a hammock, an enormous hot tub, and a little hut with a bench and a shower where you can strip naked and rinse before lowering yourself, inch by slow inch, into water so hot you can feel your skin glow. there is no talking. you soak until you can’t stand it and then you get out and walk in the dark and green garden or sit on a low stone bench and watch the steam rise from your body.

i have a code. it is one of the things that make me feel pretty damn lucky to be living here, as much as i dragged my feet about making the move. despite my own reluctance, berkeley has welcomed me the way hawaii did when i was there in 2008—and this time i plan to stay. but i know that, as in hawaii, staying will mean creating intention and following through and so on. all of that is stuff i was never that great at when i lived in portland, where it is really easy to bum around from part-time job to part-time job sort of indefinitely. (”portland is where young people go to retire,” after all!)

so i am dreamin’ some dreams, but i am also (slowly) makin’ some plans.

just as i was getting over the magnolias, this happened:

i mean, daaaang.

plus:

last week the weather was completely lovely, and this week has been lovely as well, but this weekend, when we went camping (with ben and elana), it rained, of course. we still had a good time getting our feet muddy, roasting marshmallows, and playing hearts in a tent while the rain fell.


(photo by A)

i am really enjoying taking photos these days. i would like to do more portraits and event photography. my dear friends! would you like me to take your picture? i will do it for free; just say the word.